“I am weary, God, but I can prevail.”
Do you ever feel like there are not enough hours in the day? Like no matter how much you get done, it always seems to fall short? The juggle, in the struggle, is real. This is my biggest difficulty. I love to say yes. I love to help others and often commit to things that I probably shouldn’t. I have this nagging feeling that I’m always robbing someone else of my time. When I’m at home, I worry that I forgot something at work. When I’m at work, I worry that I might not be caught up on my schoolwork. When I’m doing schoolwork, I’m thinking about how I need to spend more time with my kids. I wake up early and stay up late trying to squeeze it all in.
To be perfectly honest, I like it this way. I don’t know how to handle boredom. As soon as I find margin in my life, I’m already looking for a new way to fill it. It’s insanity but such is the life of an ADD adult. Most of the time, this really works for me I’ve learned to harness my need to keep moving and chip away at multiple projects. The problem, however, is that I often fail to realize when I am running low on steam. I don’t take the time to get the rest that I need. I won’t even acknowledge that I’m tired until I’m thoroughly exhausted.
When I’m exhausted, I am half human. Do you get like that? Irritable. Overwhelmed. Unable to think clearly. Proverbs 30, the oracle of Agur, begins with a true nugget of wisdom that I could really lean into today. “I am weary, O God. But I can prevail.” There is a lot to explore in this tiny verse. First of all, Agur is talking to God. This is always a good place to begin when you’re feeling overwhelmed. 1 Peter 5:7 says, “Cast your anxiety on the Lord because he cares for you”. It is not always easy to stop and pray way when you feel the pressure to keep your nose to the grindstone. Second, he acknowledges that he is weary. This is a challenging thing for me to admit when I’m tired and weak. But it is when we acknowledge weakness that we find strength in God. Third, Agur keeps a victorious, positive mindset even in the midst of exhaustion. “I can prevail!”
I love the structure of this verse more than anything. “I am weary, God, but I can prevail.” As we begin with acknowledgement of our fading strength, God becomes a magnifying lens that transforms our weakness into victory. I needed to see that this morning. God is a good father. We can trust him to rest when we need it, for strength to press on and a power beyond our own even when we are completely worn out. In Him, we find what we need to prevail!